Saturday, May 27, 2006
every1 in my family is tokin bout my results even my ama ask me i cnnot go sec 4 ar.den i say cnnow only mid-year stil gt final-year..dey all hor stupid d lor..actually oday my mum let me go out wid cf buy camp tings but d money must tak from my father..he comfirm wont gif d lor..ytd called denesh he say he gt 3 free tickets den ask whether i cn go out not i say most properly cnnot but ltr i gt ask him i tel him say i wan go out buy tings den he say sunday cnnot buy meh i say today i go c 1st den buy some den tml buy d rest,i say i goin wid my friends den he say go wid him la den i keep quiet hu in d hell wan go shop wid him,haiz,tis mean tat i cant go out wid denesh lor..my aunt juz cal say ltr 4pm sumtin brin me go buy mp3 but d cost must not b more den $100 my aunt n bro d mp3 all not nice d so ugly,i wanted cf tat type d dunno gt anot coz dey wan go courts buy den i tink dun haf oz courts sel d mp3 all noy nice i dun lyk haiz...anyway my aunt let me brin d mp3 2 d camp..wahahas..
~ nIcE ~
10:10 AM
Friday, May 26, 2006
so sad!! today gt d report bk back le..die 3 subj fall but overall nvr fall..lie 2 my mum say i stil haven gt back some of my result den she ask teacher gt get back anot she say yes..die..so i told her in my file..she damn angry wid me lor..last time no matter how much i get she wil let me keep den she wil oso let cf c..den when today i say i put insid my bag she say NO she brin home 1st den when cf say she wan c she say kao dao zhe yang lan hai kan she mo...oh gosh!!1st time saw her so angry wid my results lo..den i told her say i gt np stay until 4 sumtin,she use a very fierce n serious tone tel me say finish le immediately go home den i say orh...when she gone,i went 2 d b.bal court sat down besid denesh den tink wat my mum wil do tink until i very scare wan to cry so i when back class..cf n ruyi pei wo den half way back class i cried coz i very scare..in class ivery tired so i went 2 slp,i heard cf n ruyi tok about parents so again i tink of my mum beatin me n i cried again..when denesh mum came he go staff rm den i in my class,i tot he sendin me home so i waited in class 4 him..but when he came back cf ask whether he wan send me home he say no lar i have sumtin on..den i very sad but i nvr say out after he gone i stand at d window panel den it comes 2 my mind tat every time i nid him by my side,he wil have sumtin on but i cant blame him coz he goin sumwhr wid his mum but i stil very sad coz i needed him to stay by my side..den cf cal me i turn nsaw denesh outsid my class wid his mum ahead o him,he say bye bye den go le..but ltr i saw him at d foyer wid his mum from class den he say bbye again but tis time he called his mum 2 say oso..haha..my mum told my bro all my results den say i cn go work after sec 4 le coz my result lyk shit den tok tok tok..idiot la dem stupid lor..haiz..so angry..den my mum told my mum say today she not free den say she wil beat me until very jiat lat..haiz die le..
~ nIcE ~
9:50 PM
Sunday, May 21, 2006
awww...so sad..i missin him terribly..how lonely is to miss sumone without knowin whether he missed u..i noe he has personal prob he wanted 2 sayi noe i'm uselessi noe i couldnt do anitin to help himi noe his tryin to tolerate mei noe he is tryin his best to gif in to mei noe i'm juz a burden to him
mayb i'm juz not worth ur love..mayb i'm juz only noe how to b angry wid u..mayb i'm juz bein selfish..mayb i'm juz dunno u wel..mayb i'm juz only noe how to irritate u..mayb i should juz...i'm sry..real sry..sobx..i noe i'm useless i noe it.i cant do anitin to help him..i'm juz selfish..i'm totally lost..mayb we juz not belong together.r we??
~ nIcE ~
4:41 PM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
oh gosh!!now d time is 1.46pm n i'm missin sumone right now..n i tink tat d person i'm missin is not tinkin bout me instead i tink he was havin fun right now..46mins passed n he stil didnt cal how "good" is tat..damn damn damn i'm missin him badly...awww....
~ nIcE ~
1:48 PM
sianz suddenly rmb tat he gt d battle field tingy..i tink he gt la i oso not very sure but most properly gt lo.he everyting oso gt d so busy...every d tired leh actually wan 2 continue slpin d but my aunt say d aircon man cumin 2 repair d aircon at mayb 9.45am or 10am so must wak up le den my aunt sen my bro go tuition den ltr dey go buy mp3 she say mayb she wil change 2 broadband 4 d comp den gt a $50 discount vocher..she say d vocher gif me go buy mp3 but must cost not more den $100.dunno whether she wil go cange not..hope she wil but she say d vocher wil b sent 2 her ltr so i must wait lo..but i dun mind at least i gt it..muahahas..
~ nIcE ~
9:36 AM
Friday, May 19, 2006

2 daes le since wed we nvr tok but he didnt seems to care,continued to do tings he lyk n dun care bout me..startin to feel sad bout it n tryin not to let my imagination run wild..so sad lor..last time at least he wil cor me d bt now 2 daes stil nvr dunno la..scare ltr d endin lyk hidayu not very nice..he always lyk tat d lor dun wan cor me d must wait 4 me 2 cal den cor..in sch saw each other lyk strangers lyk tat when we walk past each other nvr talk not even havin any eye contact between us,dunno wats wrong bout us..tat time stil say his dunno sir or nco nvr quarrel wid his stead den say we oso wil b d next pair lyk tat but now aiya...haiz..heartbroken...all my subj noe d marks le but i only tel my mum 3 subj i gt 3 fail but dunno how 2 tel my mum sure die d...today we noe d promotion test results,my class gt 3 np cadets,fabian n arif made it 2 d sergeant rank n i'm d only 1 left behind as a corporal dunno y i cant b lo i not even in probation lor but she n she is lor..go home told my mum bout it den i cried coz i tot i could b,if i'm not n she n she is not,den its ok..but now is dey cn b under probation but i'm not..wat rubbish is tat..even fabian oso say if dey cn b under probation sergeant y cant i b..idiot la..i so devoted 2 np lor bt now sianz le coz i noe no matter wat i do,i wont b doin anytin coz i wont get d rank n dey wont listen 2 me..now i finally understand y zh n fabian became so inactive in np le n y dey r stil happy when dey r bein punish,its becoz dey had given up hope n i'm not coz i believe tat when we gt sergeant,we wil b more active n united but it was all in my fantasy tis wil nvr happen in our squat,y cant we b lyk d ncc so united n active,when u listen 2 wat dey say bout ncc, u wil noe tat dey r really devoted in it..today when fab took away kenny beries,he was so uptight even though no other ncc cadets or sirs r around,if it was our squat,some ppl wil throw it on d ground or even steppin on it..n when dey fall in or do anytin,u cn c tat deres nobody tokin all laugin,dey r very serious n when dey march,it was neat not lyk ours piece of shit it suxs no matter how hard some ppl tryin 2 make it look better when we march,sure wil haf a few ppl hu tok when we march or even walk lyk dey were at a shoppin mall..so how wil our squat look nice..haiz..i scare tat i wil b lyk fab n zh lyk tat given up hope in our squat,dey really shock me today lo..haiz...sianz la np..
~ nIcE ~
10:04 PM
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
die le la..2dae results cum out le..so bad lor..my phy fail leh..i gt:
eng paper 1 jua pass by 1 mark den e.maths stil ok la,phy fail gt only 46.5 den d chi gt only 63 overall..my mum tat time stil say ni zui shao hua wen yao na 80 yi shang den now i only 63 not even 70 lo how??all becoz of my compo i gt out of point den i fail 28/70..haiz...how 2 tel her leh i very scare leh my maths i oso dun dare tel her coz i should get higer den tat d but instead i drop den she tat time stil told my bro say my e.maths n a.maths should get at least 85 n above coz maths i always very gd so i had d basic no need scare den now leh i only gt 80 for e.maths den a.maths mayb fail how??summor she told my bro say tat time i exam i very hardworkin so wil pass all my subj den now i fail phy le..chem n eng comfirm fail..bio i oso tink wil fail...i juz now tried my mum i say eng alot ppl fail den she ask u fail so i told her say d teacher not yet gif she told me say ni fail ni jiu zi dao si..die le la...i cried durin chi period lo so sad haiz...tml stil gt more 2 cum haiz..dunno how 2 tel my mum leh...
~ nIcE ~
5:30 PM
Saturday, May 13, 2006
ytd my aunt juz bought a mp3 actually is becoz she bought a 3000 over dollar air con
den gt vocher deb she bought a mp3
den she gave 2 mybro lo..whr gt lyk tat de.not fair..i say i wan but den she gave 2 my bro.
haiz..den my bro so happy lo he hardly even noe how 2 use it lo.
he juz anyhow press d button..next time i oso wan a mp3..wahaha..
~ nIcE ~
10:17 AM
Sunday, May 07, 2006

oops my hp gt 1 missed call from (no number) private number la..dunno hu cal every time he call is no number den tis time i dunno hu stil haven return cal dunno wan 2 return not..haiz..if return den i ask u call ar he say no den we 2 say bb le..nothin else nowadaes feel lyk callin him but i dun wan coz always ntg 2 tok den aiya juz dunno y den every time he tok 2 me lyk not lyk last time le,he lyk very bored tokin 2 me den always d 1st 2say bb d..so everytime i reach 4 d phone den i press his no. but everytime i wanted 2 press d last no. i always put down d phone..i dun wan d endin 2 me d same as last time.i dun wan 2 be hurt again..my heart has been hurt be4 n i noe how pain it is n i dun wish 2 experience it again..really really dun wan..
~ nIcE ~
2:42 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006
wahaha!!finally noe how 2 use blog le..but little bit only..beginner mah..me very slowcoach d laytd he came back 2 sch nvr tel me den when ppl tel mei say huh??den dey say dun tel me u dunno he cum back le hor..or dey wil say u dunno meh...mak me very angry lo..he ownself tel me mon 8 of may den he cum back hu noes he so early cum back ar..den i nvr tok 2 him he oso nvr cum find me..nowadaes dunno wat he tinkin oso i tink he change le..since tat time he chicken pox den i find him wierd le..mayb he yi chin bie lian..haiz i oso dunno la...
~ nIcE ~
3:27 PM